Here is the testimony I’d like to share…
My heart goes out to those contemplating suicide and to the families who have dealt, or for those who are dealing with someone who is suicidal. I've been there many times, there are two times in particular, where I can remember waking up in the hospital 3 days later, at the age of 19 and another, my last attempt, when I was about 40 years old. For what I did to myself I should not be here, yet here I am. My oldest son took a picture of me in the hospital, while I was on the breathing machine, he later showed it to me. It was then I realized how much hurt I was creating for others, although I myself still felt the hurt, I vowed to never do it again.
As a child I was very close, and spiritually connected to my Heavenly Father Jehovah and Jesus Christ, but soon, by age 7, I found those whom I trusted in, were not to be trusted. In time, I became crushed in spirit and turned to the world. I soon realized that I could not fit in there either, I tried everything, to adapt to those around me, to be like them, but I couldn't, so I did the only thing left to do...I tried to end my life.
I've always believed in God, although as I approached my 49th birthday, I actually started to become agnostic, thinking that maybe God did not exist... "Is it something else that keeps pulling at me spiritually?" Finally, in 2019 (age 50), I had a calling from God. I returned to Him and he saved me. I have studied the entire Bible and continue to study it everyday, I have not looked back since.
God loves you, his timing is everything, remember it's His
timing and not ours. We may not understand why things happen the way they do,
but when the time is right, you will have a full understanding...trust in that.
If there is one thing I've learned, do everything in LOVE, love one another regardless of belief or disbelief...have faith that ALL will be saved…God is LOVE.
Matthew 18:11 ASV — For the Son of man came to save that which was lost.
May the Father ~ Jehovah, through His Son ~ Jesus Christ, bring you...
~ Peace, Love and Joy~
I LOVE YOU and I UNDERSTAND...
Kindest Regards Always,
Maria
