Today I will be sharing with you something I experienced recently... my struggle with God and how it was defeated. First, I will share more of my creativity with you. As a reminder, this is my personal blog where I share my art, life's experiences and preach God's word, sometimes separately, and sometimes it will be all in one, as I'm doing here today.

Do everything in LOVE...

1 Corinthians 16:13-14 ASV — Watch ye, stand fast in the faith, quit you like men, be strong. Let all that ye do be done in love.

How does one know if they are doing everything in love?
Is it because you believe it to be so?
Have you tested your faith?

What I'm about to share is my truth, a truth that was given to me by my God and Father, Jehovah, through the Holy Spirit, Jesus Christ. I'm dropping the seed, if it's meant to take root, it will take root. If not, then it won't. My words are always backed with scripture; therefore, they are not my words but God's word.

Unlike many "teachers" out there, I refuse to twist what scripture is saying to fit my theology. I refuse to twist Jesus' very own words when he says there is one true God, the Father. (John 17:1-3) He said it and I believe him, not you. I follow Christ, not man. I don't need to twist it's meaning, and the scripture is very clear. It's also clear when Apostle Paul says the head of Christ is God (1 Cor 11:3) and there is ONE GOD, the FATHER through one Lord, Jesus Christ. (1 Cor 8:6)

If you are happy doing that (twisting scripture) and are happy with those who do the same, then that's on you. I'm not saying scripture is always literal, as I am well aware that some scriptures are symbolic. I'm speaking of the words that are written, then taking it and saying, "I know it says that, but it's not what it really means" and then teaching it as truth.

I can accept that it can be a person's view, but I can't accept it being taught as truth, especially when it's not proven in scripture. If it's clear on what it says and other scriptures prove it, then it's clear. I see how John 1:1 can be confusing to many, but it's still doesn't prove your point. It's not confusing to me, as you will see further, and in my next post on the "I AM".

This goes to ALL who twist, add and remove from scripture. One cannot add or remove from scripture, that includes your very own understanding of scripture. Sharing it as your view is one thing, teaching it as truth is another. If you are wrong, you lied and taught that lie to many.

Proverbs 30:5-6 ASV — Every word of God is tried: He is a shield unto them that take refuge in him. Add thou not unto his words, Lest he reprove thee, and thou be found a liar.

1 Corinthians 4:6 ASV — Now these things, brethren, I have in a figure transferred to myself and Apollos for your sakes; that in us ye might learn not to go beyond the things which are written; that no one of you be puffed up for the one against the other.

Let's start here...

John 1:1 ASV — In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

Saying you can add an (a) to this scripture is...

(False)

John 1:1 NWT - In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was a god..and the Word was a goand the Word was a godd.

It's no different when changing Lord to Jesus...

Jude 1:5 ASV — Now I desire to put you in remembrance, though ye know all things once for all, that the Lord, having saved a people out of the land of Egypt, afterward destroyed them that believed not.

It is...

(False)

Jude 1:5 ESV — Now I want to remind you, although you once fully knew it, that Jesus, who saved a people out of the land of Egypt, afterward destroyed those who did not believe.

False teachers, false scholars, false translators stem from a bias in understanding, you justify the changes because you rely on your own understanding, not God's.

Do not "add or remove" is not complicated to understand, yet many of you do it. Please don't be foolish when listening to those who say that the following verse only pertains to the book of Revelation (deception)... see verses above.

Revelation 22:18-19 ASV — I testify unto every man that heareth the words of the prophecy of this book, If any man shall add unto them, God shall add unto him the plagues which are written in this book: and if any man shall take away from the words of the book of this prophecy, God shall take away his part from the tree of life, and out of the holy city, which are written in this book.

So now I ask... what gives you the right?
Are you God?

Here's another example of countless changes that have been made...

John 3:13 ASV — And no one hath ascended into heaven, but he that descended out of heaven, even the Son of man, who is in heaven.

Removing it is...

(False)

John 3:13 ESV — No one has ascended into heaven except he who descended from heaven, the Son of Man. ?

Let's not forget the adding and removing of God's name, Jehovah...

Proverbs 3:5 ASV — Trust in Jehovah with all thy heart, And lean not upon thine own understanding:

to...

(False)

Proverbs 3:5 ESV — Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.

and...

Acts 7:59-60 ASV — And they stoned Stephen, calling upon the Lord, and saying, Lord Jesus, receive my spirit. And he kneeled down, and cried with a loud voice, Lord, lay not this sin to their charge. And when he had said this, he fell asleep.

to this...

(False)

Acts 7:59, 60 NWT — As they were stoning Stephen, he made this appeal: “Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.” Then, kneeling down, he cried out with a strong voice: “Jehovah, do not charge this sin against them.” And after saying this, he fell asleep in death.

Please wake up... be a thinker, not a follower of any man (human).

Many are so convinced about what they've been taught or "programmed" to believe when it comes to scripture, that it can't be any other way. ALL RELIGIONS DO THIS. They forget they are not in charge. They don't seem to know how to apply the following verse...

Acts 17:11 ASV — Now these were more noble than those in Thessalonica, in that they received the word with all readiness of mind, examining the scriptures daily, whether these things were so.

Has it never crossed your mind how it is that one can read scripture and yet not see it written the same way as someone else?
Has it never made you wonder why one sees it differently than you?

I have.

Could you care less?
Did you see what you wanted, believe what you wanted and didn't bother knocking any further?
Have you convinced yourself this right and that it can't be any other way?

YES, MOST OF YOU HAVE!!!

My recent struggle with God...

After I returned in 2019, I investigated. I was willing to accept the truth no matter what, it didn't matter to me if my understanding had to change. I WANTED NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH. When I left the JW's for 2 months in the fall of 2019, I went on a search for more truth because I definitely was not finding it there.

Being awakened in the Spirit does not mean you will have full comprehension of everything all at once. Although I knew of the presence of Christ Jesus, the antichrist, and the Father, there was still much I needed to learn and continue to learn. It's a slow process and I'm thankful for it, as one can be overwhelmed.

Is Jesus really God?
Is the Holy Spirit personified or simply an active force?
Is what I'm learning through the spirit fact or fiction?

Very important to define the spirits, yet most of you don't bother investigating it. You just follow wherever the spirit guides. Don't assume the spirit guiding you is from God. You need to test the spirits. The antichrist is crafty and proclaims himself as God, enough so that he could even lead astray the elect.

Matthew 24:24 ASV — For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall show great signs and wonders; so as to lead astray, if possible, even the elect.

2 Thessalonians 2:8-9 ASV — And then shall be revealed the lawless one, whom the Lord Jesus shall slay with the breath of his mouth, and bring to nought by the manifestation of his coming; even he, whose coming is according to the working of Satan with all power and signs and lying wonders,

It's been a tough journey, one that I've had to endure on my own. I'm thankful God has put a handful of people in my life that I can go to about certain situations, but it's still a very lonely place. One thing I will never let go of is who I am inside. I had struggles most of my life because I relied on the world, but recently, my struggle was with God, as stated earlier, there are still many things I don't understand.

Some of my questions to God...

Why not just let people understand and see the scriptures for what they are?
Why keep them blind?
Now that I've returned to you...why do you allow Satan to attack me at times, sometimes severely?
Why aren't you protecting me?

Here's just one example of many struggles I've had to endure...

This one just happened. It started the night after my birthday last week, when I went to bed. It was a hard pill to swallow, and it lasted for a few days. I was alone once again. Vulnerable to all that was happening around me. It was so powerful and evil, and I received no help from God. I actually began to lose my hope in God once again... and, for the first time in my life, truly not liking the God of the Bible.

If the God of the Bible isn't protecting me or won't protect me and I have to continuously beg for him to protect me while I'm enduring a serious spiritual struggle with Satan and his demons, then he's not a loving God. The story that took place with Job, the attack from Satan being allowed, I found to be cruel, although I understood its concept, I never liked it. It came up often when I was in my own serious struggle. It helped because Job kept his integrity and it helped me to stick to mine, but I still felt God was responsible because he allowed it all to take place.

So, I told God he could take his power and keep it. I didn't want it. I didn't want to love a God who feels he needs to show me how powerful he is. I already knew it, hence why it wasn't making sense to me why he wasn't helping me. I prayed and prayed to where I was begging. He knew what I was going through and still, he allowed it. To me it was so cruel... I felt he was no longer my God because my God was love and that was not love.

I told God I was disappointed in him and that I would not follow a God like that. In the same breath, I told Satan and his demons, although God was handing me over to them, they would NEVER have me either, not willingly. My heart would prevail and be bigger than all of it...God, Satan and his demons. I would continue to be me, as best as I could. Giving as much love as I could to others, even if I was abandoned by the God of the Bible and was eventually allowed to be taken by the evil that surrounded me.

I would not go without a fight...

James 1:12 ASV — Blessed is the man that endureth temptation; for when he hath been approved, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord promised to them that love him.

What did I learn?
What was the lesson?

I'm not a child anymore...

1 Corinthians 13:11-13 ASV — When I was a child, I spake as a child, I felt as a child, I thought as a child: now that I am become a man, I have put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know fully even as also I was fully known. But now abideth faith, hope, love, these three; and the greatest of these is love.

I didn't need to lose who I was as an individual because God had abandoned me. I could still be me, a loving person, even if God was not there anymore. I would not turn back to the world, as I did when I was a very young child and throughout most of my life. I was finally at peace with being myself, who I was as an individual and I would not allow this world, nor Satan and his demons to define me once again.

I felt that I would remain loyal to the love inside of me, at least until Satan would finally be allowed to take me, maybe for good this time.

It would be out of my hands. As a child I didn't know better, and I looked to the world for answers and help. The church was the last place I wanted to go to. It was all corrupt. Now I'm an adult and I know better. I could simply hold on to my dignity, my integrity, my heart and wherever my life went, it went.

I searched for what was deep inside of me, my heart, my spirit and held on to it. That's where I found the love of God waiting for me and that's where God was the entire time. I followed my heart and truly found where God was residing. He was inside of me. GOD IS LOVE and my weapon was LOVE.

Genesis 32:28 ASV — And he said, Thy name shall be called no more Jacob, but Israel: for thou hast striven with God and with men, and hast prevailed.

I won that battle with God, because I used HIM to fight it. Satan and his demons still try to attack me. As I've said before, he likes to play the role of God, not just in our minds and with those around us, but through scripture as well. He is the antichrist, the false prophet, he is the adversary and all that is evil.

2 Thessalonians 2:4 ASV — he that opposeth and exalteth himself against all that is called God or that is worshipped; so that he sitteth in the temple of God, setting himself forth as God.

True Love is True Faith...it's inside of you.

John 17:11 ASV — And I am no more in the world, and these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep them in thy name which thou hast given me, that they may be one, even as we are.

John 17:14 ASV — I have given them thy word; and the world hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.

1 Corinthians 3:16 ASV — Know ye not that ye are a temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?

Natural ability to understand...

1 Corinthians 14:1-2 ASV — Follow after love; yet desire earnestly spiritual gifts, but rather that ye may prophesy. For he that speaketh in a tongue speaketh not unto men, but unto God; for no man understandeth; but in the spirit he speaketh mysteries.

Check your faith...

Is it based on self-righteousness or TRUE love?

How many continue to say "let scripture speak for itself" but then twist what scripture ACTUALLY says to fit their theology, their belief.

Does your faith truly reveal love for your neighbor?
Is that love still there when confronted with another belief and understanding in scripture?
Do you try to listen and understand what one is trying to share with you?
Do you take the time to show one why you believe what you do?

Most of you would say yes, but I would highly disagree. Very, very few do this. Most will throw a few scriptures to prove their point and won't want to hear anything more.

Is that fair?
Is that what preaching the word of God is about?
If you are so right, why not take the time to share it?
Isn't that what you are supposed to do?
Does one become better because they are a preacher, pastor or elder?
Aren't we all still learning?
Aren't we all supposed to keep knocking for more truth?

You've become so convinced that you have it right, yet you won't take the time to prove it. You're so convinced you have the truth that you shut down someone trying to express their view, listening without listening, or you simply avoid them and/or disregard them. Wondering who they think they are to preach the word of their truth.

Then there are those who may take the time to actually study scripture, but the moment you share something they don't agree with, shown in scripture, they cover their ears, stop listening and look the other way. Many of you actually become very rude and disrespectful. Many of you have even cast me out.

John 16:2 ASV — They shall put you out of the synagogues: yea, the hour cometh, that whosoever killeth you shall think that he offereth service unto God.

Stop relying on theology of men, the "church fathers" or rabbinic literature, scholars and teachers, as many of you clearly do, instead of relying on God to guide you. I love reading about that as well and I love listening to others' views, but I don't rely on it.

I rely on the one true God...

The Father.

John 17:1, 3 ASV — These things spake Jesus; and lifting up his eyes to heaven, he said, Father, the hour is come; glorify thy Son, that the Son may glorify thee: ... And this is life eternal, that they should know thee the only true God, and him whom thou didst send, [even] Jesus Christ.

Look at yourself, before you look at others who think different than you. It could be you who has to change. It could be you that had it wrong all along.

Wouldn't you want to know?
Have you become self-righteous in your belief?

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Reflection...Looking in the Mirror

That's not love, nor is that sharing the gospel of the Bible. It becomes sharing the gospel of your belief. You put your faith before love. Again, all denominations are guilty of this. I've studied with many...One God believers and triune God believers. I've attended different churches and countless Bible studies. You are all the same. You are loving until someone confronts you with their belief, then you don't want to hear it anymore.

1 Corinthians 13:2 ASV — And if I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

I find most of you to be beautiful, but as believers your love tends to sit on the surface, it's not true. It becomes about self, your belief... faith before love. I speak of my own experiences and what I've witnessed with others. Many have left the church for this very reason; they're actually persecuted by you, the church, for thinking for themselves and having a different understanding.

Here's a statement that should shake you... I found some atheists who have more faith in God then you, the believer.

How's that possible?

Because they live a life of kindness and strive to do what is right by God's will without knowing he exists. That is what true faith is. Some try to lead a holy life. They don't realize what guides them to be beautiful people is the heart... it's love and that is who God is. So, they are unknowingly guided by God and follow him. It's beautiful.

Are they perfect?

No, no one is.

But these will have an easier time accepting truth when the time comes than you "the believer". You "the believer" have made it about yourself, your belief, so much so that you've become self-righteous, you just can't seem to see that it's in you. Never taking the time to look in the mirror, to look at what you do or where it is you are going wrong. Always pointing that finger, forgetting there are 3 pointing back at you.

Matthew 7:3 ASV — And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?

At least the atheist who leads with love can say, well I didn't believe in God, so I didn't know I was sinning. But YOU, the believer, know scripture and can't use that excuse.

Judges 21:25 ASV — In those days there was no king in Israel: every man did that which was right in his own eyes.

Luke 18:11 ASV — The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as the rest of men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican.

Thinking you are better than another, even in what you believe, by your faith, is you exalting yourself...

Luke 18:13-14 ASV — But the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote his breast, saying, God, be thou merciful to me a sinner. I say unto you, This man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be humbled; but he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.

You are not to follow anyone no matter how much they inspire you and believe like you. Follow Christ Jesus and let it be God, the Father who inspires you.

It's not the will of Jesus, it's the will of the Father...

Matthew 7:21 ASV — Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of MY FATHER who is in heaven.

Sadly, many of you claim to know the Father, but you really don't him, most of you don't even preach about him. Therefore, you don't know Jesus either... hence why you continue to believe he is God.

Matthew 7:22 ASV — Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy by thy name, and by thy name cast out demons, and by thy name do many mighty works?

Matthew 7:23 ASV — And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.

Here's a few more questions for you...

Do you feel your faith (what you believe) is above another's who believes different?
Are you convinced your faith is right and it couldn't be any other way?
Would that not make you self-righteous?
Now be honest...have you judged another by your belief?
Have you ever asked...is it possible that I've been misled?
Who taught me...man's understanding, including my own, or God himself?

Man's word...

1 John 2:26 ASV — These things have I written unto you concerning them that would lead you astray.

God's word...

1 John 2:27 ASV — And as for you, the anointing which ye received of him abideth in you, and ye need not that any one teach you; but as his anointing teacheth you concerning all things, and is true, and is no lie, and even as it taught you, ye abide in him.

Have you tested the spirits to see if these things were so?

1 John 4:1 ASV — Beloved, believe not every spirit, but prove the spirits, whether they are of God; because many false prophets are gone out into the world.

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Hebrew:

Lexicon :: Strong's H1697 - dāḇār

Strong’s Definitions [?](Strong’s Definitions Legend)

דָּבָר dâbâr, daw-baw'; from H1696; a word; by implication, a matter (as spoken of) or thing; adverbially, a cause:—act, advice, affair, answer, × any such (thing), because of, book, business, care, case, cause, certain rate, chronicles, commandment, × commune(-ication), concern(-ing), confer, counsel, dearth, decree, deed, × disease, due, duty, effect, eloquent, errand, (evil favoured-) ness, glory, harm, hurt, iniquity, judgment, language, lying, manner, matter, message, (no) thing, oracle, × ought, × parts, pertaining, please, portion, power, promise, provision, purpose, question, rate, reason, report, request, × (as hast) said, sake, saying, sentence, sign, so, some (uncleanness), somewhat to say, song, speech, × spoken, talk, task, that, × there done, thing (concerning), thought, thus, tidings, what(-soever), wherewith, which, word, work.

Greek:

Lexicon :: Strong's G3056 - logos

Strong’s Definitions [?](Strong’s Definitions Legend)

λόγος lógos, log'-os; from G3004; something said (including the thought); by implication, a topic (subject of discourse), also reasoning (the mental faculty) or motive; by extension, a computation; specially, (with the article in John) the Divine Expression (i.e. Christ):—account, cause, communication, × concerning, doctrine, fame, × have to do, intent, matter, mouth, preaching, question, reason, + reckon, remove, say(-ing), shew, × speaker, speech, talk, thing, + none of these things move me, tidings, treatise, utterance, word, work.

Strong's H4317 - mîḵā'ēl

מִיכָאֵל Mîykâʼêl, me-kaw-ale'; from H4310 and (the prefix derivative from) H3588 and H410; who (is) like God?; Mikael, the name of an archangel and of nine Israelites:—Michael.

1 Thessalonians 4:16 ASV — For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven, with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first;

There is no scripture to prove Jesus as the Almighty God.

That is a FALSE teaching.

Well, you might say: " There's other verses that prove it". No, there isn't. There are many scholars who know scripture does not reveal Jesus Christ as God. They have no bias and can read scripture for what it is. Some of these scholars are atheist, but others are not.

Here's just one of many that I enjoy listening to but don't rely on...

James Tabor

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Just because you know it to be true, that Jesus is God, doesn't mean it is true...

1 Corinthians 1:21 ASV — For seeing that in the wisdom of God the world through its wisdom knew not God, it was God’s good pleasure through the foolishness of the preaching to save them that believe.

2 Corinthians 10:12 ASV — For we are not bold to number or compare ourselves with certain of them that commend themselves: but they themselves, measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves with themselves, are without understanding.

Matthew 5:37 ASV — But let your speech be, Yea, yea; Nay, nay: and whatsoever is more than these is of the evil one.

Another thing that is very common among many is to say; "love you". Please stop telling people you love them, if in your heart you don't really mean it. If you don't mean it, simply don't say it. There are other ways to be polite. It's misleading and hurtful to learn it's not true...God likes truth. Let your yes mean yes, and your no mean no. You can't say you love someone then later treat them with discontent (antipathy). Again, this is something I've encountered within many denominations.

1 John 2:5 ASV — but whoso keepeth his word, in him verily hath the love of God been perfected. Hereby we know that we are in him:

an·tip·a·thy

[anˈtēpəTHē]

NOUN

a deep-seated feeling of dislike; aversion:
"his fundamental antipathy to capitalism" ·
[more]
synonyms:
hostility · antagonism · animosity · aversion · animus · opposition · enmity · dislike · distaste · ill will · ill feeling · hatred · hate · abhorrence · loathing · repugnance · odium · grudge · disrelish

Test your faith, be true to yourself (good or bad) and ask for guidance...

Proverbs 6:16-19 ASV — There are six things which Jehovah hateth; Yea, seven which are an abomination unto him: Haughty eyes, a lying tongue, And hands that shed innocent blood; A heart that deviseth wicked purposes, Feet that are swift in running to mischief, A false witness that uttereth lies, And he that soweth discord among brethren.

I feel confident when I say I love you, because I mean it, it is truth. Regardless of how anyone has treated me, I continue to love them and pray for them. To those who continue to do wrong, I may not like your behavior, but I'm still able to love you because I can see past the hate, the deception that works in you. I simply pray for you and truly hope that you change.

If you don't feel it, don't beat yourself up over it either. It's better to be honest with yourself and work on it within, then to pretend that it is there, because in the end you will only hurt yourself. Once you have it good within you and with God, then share that joy with others.

1 John 4:7-8 ASV — Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is begotten of God, and knoweth God. He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.

Romans 8:39 ASV — nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

1 Corinthians 2:9 ASV — but as it is written, Things which eye saw not, and ear heard not, And which entered not into the heart of man, Whatsoever things God prepared for them that love him.

Acts 17:30-31 ASV — The times of ignorance therefore God overlooked; but now he commandeth men that they should all everywhere repent: inasmuch as he hath appointed a day in which he will judge the world in righteousness by the man whom he hath ordained; whereof he hath given assurance unto all men, in that he hath raised him from the dead.

Learn to dig deep, find God (love) within you, because God is LOVE and without it you will not succeed. You can't draw close to God, if you don't know him. Jesus revealed him, but he is not him. God is the Father, the Almighty.

1 John 4:19-21 ASV — We love, because he first loved us. If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, cannot love God whom he hath not seen. And this commandment have we from him, that he who loveth God love his brother also.

Please, truly love one another, regardless of what you or another believes.

Trust that God will set matters straight soon enough.

Isaiah 1:18-20 ASV — Come now, and let us reason together, saith Jehovah: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool. If ye be willing and obedient, ye shall eat the good of the land: but if ye refuse and rebel, ye shall be devoured with the sword; for the mouth of Jehovah hath spoken it.

Matthew 7:7-8 ASV — Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: for every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

Please repent, ask for forgiveness of your sins and keep it holy. Start by correcting the "wrongs" in your life, asking for forgiveness from those around you and any you need to make a mends with or don't bother bringing your gift to the altar.

Matthew 5:23-24 ASV — If therefore thou art offering thy gift at the altar, and there rememberest that thy brother hath aught against thee, leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way, first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift.

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May "LOVE" God the Father (Jehovah) through Jesus Christ,

bring you...

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Saturday, October 8, 2022

Struggled with God... Self-Righteousness or Love?

Lexicon :: Strong's H1697 - dāḇār

Lexicon :: Strong's G3056 - logos

Strong's H4317 - mîḵā'ēl