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Many will not comprehend what I'm about to share... but then there will be those who will.
Timing is Everything
Today's post is an important one, as it will reveal much that I had not yet shared with you when it came to my calling from God in 2019. It's about the tribulation that I've endured, although I still somewhat experience it, it doesn't compare to what had happened to me in 2019. Back then, my immediate family couldn't make sense of it, they knew something was happening to me, a transformation was taking place, but they didn't know what it was.
Some of them thought: "That's it, she has finally gone off the deep end".
I didn't.
In fact, they now see how God has intervened. My siblings noticed the change as well, one of them believing it was God who intervened and later a few others believed as well. My husband returned to his faith; my eldest son has begun to turn to God and the other three boys are simply happy to see I'm in a good place.
In hindsight, my "middle child" can see that maybe God had some influence in what took place, he's agnostic and isn't sure that God exists. The twins say they don't believe in God (their heart telling me different), also noticed a big change; they didn't like it at first because it I was different to them, "mom changed", but now they are happy to see that it turned out for the best.
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At the time, neither of us had a deep understanding of scripture, just what we remembered from going to church as children. My love for the Father and Son never faltered until late 2018, when for the first time, I began to question if God really existed.
It's been about 3 years now that I've been medicine free. I had a basket filled with medications; many I took to combat side effects of other medications I was on. I needed a pill box to sort it all out because there were so many. All of it just leading to more and more complications. Some nearly killing me, one in particular that I took for depression and sleep, put me in the hospital many times for fainting and extremely low drop in blood pressure - 60/40. The last time I went to the hospital I learned it actually caused what's called a "prolonged QT" and they took me off the medicine immediately. That was in late 2018.
Shortly after, I learned they pulled that medicine off the shelf and added to the label "may cause sudden death" and proceeded to put it back on the shelf. All I can think of was how money really blinded the greedy. Side note: This was just one of many pills I took when I tried to end my life over a decade ago, taking the entire bottle of medicines I had, along with street drugs and large amounts alcohol...I really should not be here, but God had other plans.
After I returned to God in 2019, within a few months I was off all medications. In the fall of 2019, my doctor couldn't believe the transformation that took place, he was nearly bouncing off of his seat. I was already medicine free at this point. Taking medications for years since early 2000's, and just like that I'm healthier than I was in my 20's.
For the exception of anemia, due to much loss of blood that led to an urgent hysterectomy on 9/11/20. My vitals and blood work are now perfect and have been ever since. It's still strange to me not to see H (High) or L (Low) in bloodwork.
As I move forward with this post, you should have no doubt that all credit goes to GOD. I literally disowned myself, carried the cross, put my life in his hands and he has carried me through.
Revelation 2:9 ASV — I know thy tribulation, and thy poverty (but thou art rich), and the blasphemy of them that say they are Jews, and they are not, but are a synagogue of Satan.
So, what happened in 2019?
I had just spent the last part of 2018 and early 2019 removing myself from politics and "Q" as I began to see the fraud behind both sides and how they were actually working together. I also had been reminded of the fraud religion was after JW's started knocking on my door in late 2017.
What I found interesting was the year the JW's lied about the prediction of Armageddon, it crushed my spirit to know they were capable of lying, my brother Jack was recruited to the Marines. It was 1975, I saw the heartbreak it brought my parents.
Now here we are in September of 2017 and it's the same story. JW's started knocking on my door and my boys were still in school and got recruited to the Marines, I was distraught to say the least. After witnessing what happened to my brother Jack, who until this day is still ill and has never recovered, getting sick after a couple years of service, it saddened me that my boys were now under their full control.
Strangely enough I started to see a parallel. Throughout the year in 2019, after my calling and waking up in the Spirit, I continued to see more and more parallels between the JW Org and the military/politics. They did business with the Jared Kushner; they hid their involvement with the UN, whom they called the "biblical beast", to something as simple as MEPS. I sat at the Mohegan Sun in July of 2018 for a Trump rally, suddenly "being privileged" that day to VIP seats, to exactly one year later attending an assembly for the JW Convention also at the Mohegan Sun, in July of 2019.
I also knew how one was owned once you signed up. Civilians belonging to the government and civilians belonging to the JW organization.
- How?
Once you sign up, you can't just leave the military at freewill within an allotted time without losing something, and you can't just leave the JW's at freewill, without losing something either, especially if your baptized by them. Some have lost their entire families. I know this firsthand as they broke up my family of 12 in the early 90's. I never wanted anything to do with them after that. I saw the evil in what they did, I was amazed by it, and it angered me.
Here's a simple story I'd like to share going back to the early 80's. When I was around 13, the JW's wanted me to get baptized. I was being pressured to get baptized because if I didn't, I wouldn't receive the reward of everlasting life. My thought was: "If I get baptized, I want it to be because of my love for the Father and the Son, not because I was going to receive a reward at the end".
I made a decision that I would NOT get baptized because I felt it would not REFLECT the true meaning of my heart. It would be perceived that it was done for a reward that I would receive and not for the love that I truly had toward the Father and Son.
That was the final straw for me. I also knew that my God was a loving God. I couldn't accept the teaching that he would destroy unrighteous mankind during Armageddon to never return again because as it was by chance, that these would be alive.
So, the unrighteous ones that died prior to Armageddon would be resurrected, but the unrighteous who happen to be around at the time of Armageddon wouldn't? It didn't add up and I wanted nothing to do with it. By 13, the decision was made in my heart. I never got baptized and eventually I left. Attending meetings only when I had to because of my mom.
Forward to 2019...
- Why would I go back to them after the horrors I experienced by them?
Excerpt...
"My thinking went into overdrive, and I was picking up on the littlest of details and compartmentalizing them all. I felt like I was a machine, like my brain was a supercomputer. It was the scariest thing I had ever experienced, to feel that my mind was somehow infiltrated, robotic. Shortly after, I started writing...page, after page, after page, in one day's time I had enough pages to fill a book. I went to the library and started studying some books. "Thinking Fast and Slow" was one of them and "The Four Testaments" was another. I had bought many books and read them. I started reading books that I had at home, one was "Spirituality" that I had bought from the previous year."
Let's get to the story...
Having thoughts for the first time in 2018 that God might not exist, I found myself still searching for something that kept pulling at my spirit. In the meantime, I dug deep into politics and Q, hoping something good was finally going to take place. I was a republican for a few years now. I hated politics and never got involved with it, voting only once due to peer pressure, prior to the 2016 election.
By September of 2018 something within me was changing, I was no longer trusting either side and so I became a civil libertarian instead.
Still heavily involved on Twitter with "Q" and politics, I suddenly began to notice things more profoundly. I was picking up on things and predicting what would come next. Strangely enough, it did.
Here's an example: On the day that General Flynn went to court in December of 2018, I had just shared an article on Twitter of Treason, somehow knowing the judge would announce it and sure enough, right after, Judge Sullivan brings up Treason against Flynn. I remember thinking, how did I know that?
At this point, I've already begun to believe I was being tracked, that my every move was being watched. I felt like I was being "toyed" with.
- How could that be?
- Are they somehow reading my mind?
More and more strange things immerged and began to see how it was all a hoax. Politicians are just a cover for what the military or bigger powers are doing behind the scenes.
By January of 2019, I was becoming somewhat paranoid as I began to notice more and more details and patterns starting to immerge, it was uncanny how my brain started to see things beyond normal. I instantly removed myself from the world of politics. I wanted no part of it.
Well, now it's too late. I'm sensing the military's presence. It's impossible to explain how, as it was many little things that I noticed. Example: I started seeing things almost instantly change on the internet. One minute reading one thing, almost in that instant, it now read something else.
- How was that possible?
- How did that just happen?
Here's an example of something similar that took place....
It was on the JW app on my phone and my computer in June of 2019. I had installed the app after I had returned to the JW Organization. It's something that appeared on their app, then shortly after it disappeared off of the JW app. It was so unusual to me, considering all that I was already going through, it definitely stood out.
Pay close attention to the number on the image of the songs and to the titles of these 2 songs, specifically how "God's" is written in the title.
This is what is currently on the JW app. (Fig 1)
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But this is what I saw in June of 2019.
I thought I had deleted it off of my phone but when I played music on the Amazon app from my phone (Fig 2) on February 8, 2021 (Fig 3), it shows how it originally was stored on my phone in June of 2019.
It shows (song 6) for both songs in the image, yet the one song is actually (song 151) as you can see in Fig 6.
Notice how God is spelled in "The Prayer of God's Servant" and "The Revealing of God's Sons".
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I made sure to take a screenshot of it because I still couldn't find it on my phone. I knew it was there, but I just didn't know where to look. I'm not that tech savvy.
It reminded me of a European spelling in the sense that the (â) is used in the Portuguese language and it was mixed with the Euro symbol, and TM was before the s.
I'm still trying to discern the spirits at this point, knowing the false Christ was undoubtedly present, pretending to be Christ... and I experienced firsthand how JW Org were false Prophets. (1975)
1 John 4:1 ASV — Beloved, believe not every spirit, but prove the spirits, whether they are of God; because many false prophets are gone out into the world.
As stated above, shortly after downloading it, it disappeared from the JW app and from my computer, but I could still see it on my phone. I assumed because I had downloaded it to my phone with the "typo" that it remained saved that way. It seemed quite strange to me though... the mysterious "typo" for spelling "God's" suddenly disappears along with the "6" for (song 151) from the JW app and my computer, but not my phone.
I remember thinking, well at least I still have it on my phone if for some reason I had to use it as proof of something I could.
Aside from the songs being close to my heart, this was a big deal to me because I kept seeing a patterns and numbers, "6" being one of them, even prior to returning to the JW's. The other thing that caught my eye was how God was being spelled out, it was a strange spelling, and something didn't feel right to me. I would pronounce it: God-ey-a, yet it's meaning to me in Portuguese would read "God is European"... "God é Europeu".
We all know God is not from Europe... maybe the false god is, the false Christ, but not my God.
Example on how the letter (â) reads:This is the Euro symbol... 
TM before the S: (TM or TMS) = The symbolism can go in many directions, trademark, something to do with magnetic fields: Transverse Magnetic Wave or Transcranial magnetic stimulation. I don't know.
- The unsuspecting test subject? (a person or thing used as a subject for experiment)
I showed the screenshot to a devout JW recently, maybe a few months ago, he's one I trust puts his faith in God, not men. He's also the one that baptized me. Ironically enough, as I'm uploading the image for this post, I realized this screenshot was taken the day after my baptism. Anyway, he's been a JW since early 70's and digs deep into scripture, he had no idea what it was and said he never saw God written that way.
This continued to confirm that there was something happening, I just didn't know for certain what it all meant. Knowing I couldn't trust JW Org, I had kept it to myself.
Military term that is often used: "Got your six", it means "I've got your back".
Shortly after returning to the JW's and studying the Bible for myself (day and night), I went through a phase where I burned all of my notes, (see excerpt above from a previous blog post) and deleted everything, including the printed songs. At the time, I still didn't know where all of this was headed, if JW's where for, or against God.
In 2019, before leaving the JW's once again for a couple of months (late September-November -realizing things were still not right with them), I told an Elder "some" of what was happening to me, so he recommended that I burn all of my notes. I thought it was best until I got more clarity... I was testing the spirits and trusted that God would lead me to where I needed to be. Afterwards, I had deleted everything off of my phone too. It was many months later that I tried to find it again, but I couldn't.
Had I not seen this on my JW app and seen it somewhere else, I probably wouldn't have put too much thought into it. Possibly a trademark of some kind. But because of what I was already going through, it stood out.
- Two specific songs that meant something to me.
- The symbols are placed in-between the song title, not at the end, specific to the word "God's".
- The number 6 on the image of both songs.
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- Song 151: The Revealing of God's Sons
- Song 006: The Prayer of God’s Servant
So now back to the story...
At this point, I'm now seeing the numbers "6 and 9" pop out quite often, everywhere I went, certain colors stood out too, specifically red, black and white, and I was reminded of the blackholes in space simply by seeing a black circle. This doesn't even begin to touch on all that I was going through. The black ink blot that I did in art class at school when I was child, folding the paper and smooshing it, even that came to mind, something about ink and the brain. (psychology)
I didn't understand the scriptures at the time because I had walked away as a child and refused to have anyone, especially JW's, tell me what the scriptures said. I had not yet returned to faith at this point.
Mark of the beast or GOD?
Quick fast forward...
I know now. As stated above it's all about balance, where there was evil, there was good too... I just had to choose.
Ezekiel 9:3-4 ASV — And the glory of the God of Israel was gone up from the cherub, whereupon it was, to the threshold of the house: and he called to the man clothed in linen, who had the writer’s inkhorn by his side. And Jehovah said unto him, Go through the midst of the city, through the midst of Jerusalem, and set a mark upon the foreheads of the men that sigh and that cry over all the abominations that are done in the midst thereof.
Yet, I was still sane.
Slowly, more started to immerge, but now it started becoming more sinister, dark forces of evil started to make themselves known. Halloween and what it stood for, clearly came to mind...back to the colors (red, black and white) also orange and green. I thought of vampires and the dark world. I was reminded of shows and movies, the Walking Dead and Game of Thrones, dragons and eggs. I would grocery shop and be reminded of the harvest, it made me sick. I also took note of dark eerie nights with a bright moon and black crows. Bright lights began to affect me, on cars at night, on digital devices, alarms and so on.
Isaiah 59:5 ASV — They hatch adders' eggs, and weave the spider's web: he that eateth of their eggs dieth; and that which is crushed breaketh out into a viper.
Movies started to become the news; meaning, I started to see a connection in them to the "real" world. Everywhere I turned I either saw things that reminded me of the military's presence or Satan. People looked and behaved differently, as if they were somehow being controlled. Repeating themselves over and over, and not even noticing it.
I was in HELL
As this is becoming more apparent, I suddenly noticed a meaning to my tattoos, especially my lower back. I remember thinking it was the stamp of Satan; what I called the weed, always hating it. I was hysterically crying thinking I gave myself to Satan. As I'm writing you this, I'm reminded of how I wanted to add an eye to it, to change it up. I'm sure many of you know what that means, I'm so glad I didn't.
I have a dream: "Call your brother David".
He's the elder for the JW's I mentioned earlier, so I called him. He told me to pray to Jehovah and get rid of anything evil in my home. So, I did. At this point we're in March, as it's closer to the Memorial of Jesus Christ. I can't remember how I got a Bible, but I remember repeating a Psalm in my prayers over and over again.
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- Alpha and Omega - A to (Z)
- Day of Jehovah - Lightning Bolt
- Reminder of the lilies. Psalm 45, 60,69, 80
- Day of Rest - Millennium (7)
- Jesus' death - 6th hour and 9th hour
- 11th hour wage
- Balance - 11:11
- Name - Mary/Maria
- Newark - New Ark
- Red, black and White - The Four Horseman
- Yellow and Green- Light and Peace
- Orange - God's anger
"As the orange clouds start moving, more and more appear, moving quickly and furious. I remember thinking Jehovah is angry and He was there to rescue me for all the bad that was being done to me.
Psalm 18:8-10 ASV — There went up a smoke out of his nostrils, And fire out of his mouth devoured: Coals were kindled by it. He bowed the heavens also, and came down; And thick darkness was under his feet. And he rode upon a cherub, and did fly; Yea, he soared upon the wings of the wind."
I eventually returned to the JW's thinking they would understand and that they too were awakened. I was wrong. I stayed with them because it helped me to return to my roots, the love I had for Jehovah and Jesus Christ. In time, I saw how they were still seriously flawed. I was persecuted first for claiming to be anointed, and later for asking questions about teachings that were unbiblical. They silenced me... eventually I lost some family and friends. The love they "so much" profess to have for others went right out the door... no more love.
I returned to God, not religion. I've learned all religions are the same, just done differently. One may not lose their family, but you are still considered an outsider, different, and not one of their own, even if you are welcomed, because they "welcome" you at a distance. It's not about the people, it's about one's belief, one's church... indoctrination.
What is Transhumanism?
Many months back someone shared a video. It was about Transhumanism; I knew instantly what it was. "I now have name for it" was my thought, for all that I had experienced in 2019 and so forth. In the video it was said it's for the future. That's a lie. For me, it's already here.
Ephesians 6:11 ASV — Put on the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
Psalm 69:4 ASV — They that hate me without a cause are more than the hairs of my head: They that would cut me off, being mine enemies wrongfully, are mighty: That which I took not away I have to restore. (MIND)
Revelation 13:5 ASV — and there was given to him a mouth speaking great things and blasphemies; and there was given to him authority to continue forty and two months.
I experienced what I shared above and so much worse, including my body suddenly sitting itself up. I felt the presence of something with me; trying to control me, my head and body sometimes moving itself without my direction and hearing voices in my head (blasphemy) trying to give orders; at times demeaning, repulsive and threatening, to hearing certain music play; "wheels in the sky keep on turning" was a familiar one. Interestingly enough reminding me of the movie Transformers "Bumble Bee".
I found the good in the bad..."When navigating, the bees are able to use the sun as a fixed reference point. This allows them to fly in a compass direction simply by keeping the angle between their line of flight and the sun constant. Bees that have successfully found food are then able to share the location through their dance language."
Jeremiah 7:11 ASV — Is this house, which is called by my name, become a den of robbers in your eyes? Behold, I, even I, have seen it, saith Jehovah.
It's a spiritual war...
Zechariah 14:2 ASV — For I will gather all nations against Jerusalem to battle; and the city shall be taken, and the houses rifled, and the women ravished; and half of the city shall go forth into captivity, and the residue of the people shall not be cut off from the city.
I didn't know there would be a name for it, it was enough to make one go insane, but yet I remained sane because I trusted in Jehovah, I had no fear because I knew he would protect me, and he certainly has. The scales have tilted, although I can still feel the attacks coming, they are much less powerful.
Jehovah has taught me well and has continued to sustain me through these very difficult years. He is my strength and my savior, and yes, it is done through Christ.
Hebrews 13:6 ASV — So that with good courage we say, The Lord is my helper; I will not fear: What shall man do unto me?
- Upgrade humans into gods.
- Not in the literary metaphor, in the literal sense.
- Create and design life according to our wishes.
- In Genisis...we are trying to acquire this divine ability to ourselves.
- Reaching beyond the gods.
- Gods like Jehovah can create only organic things.
- Humans are trying to do better than that.
- Why do I share this story with you?
- Why is that?
Because it's my story and Jehovah has revealed it to me through Christ. Yes, there is much that is present with me, but God's strength is stronger, as HE is present with me as well, through Christ. Something I told the JW's back in 2019 when I first returned.
As I've stated in some of my posts, I've become aware of Christ and the Antichrist. The antichrist being a false Christ, pretending to be Christ.
Matthew 24:24 ASV — For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall show great signs and wonders; so as to lead astray, if possible, even the elect.
ANTICHRIST ~ The Storm is Near
James 1:26 ASV — If any man thinketh himself to be religious, while he bridleth not his tongue but deceiveth his heart, this man’s religion is vain.
We are to guide people to scripture and let them go to God, the Father for understanding. We are to drop the seed and teach them that God himself, through Christ, will make it grow. If it's meant to take root, it will take root. Timing is everything. Our job is just to guide them in the right path.
1 Corinthians 3:6 ASV — I planted, Apollos watered; but God gave the increase.
I've heard it said, "all are welcome" but when someone asks to have an "open discussion" Bible study for the church (people) and it is denied, because one's belief differs from the church, then NO, all are not welcome. It's about YOU... YOUR belief and as it's been said, it's YOUR church, no longer making it God's church, because you've become partial to those who believe like you.
Bible studies are to study the Bible, not just your belief and it should be open for ALL to discuss equally what scripture means to them, with no judgement. Not everyone thinks and believes like you. So please stop saying all are welcome, it's misleading... not only are you lying to yourself, but to others as well.
LETTER OF THE HEART
