War of the Roses

The Four Horsemen and You

Revelation 6:1-8 ASV — And I saw when the Lamb opened one of the seven seals, and I heard one of the four living creatures saying as with a voice of thunder, Come. And I saw, and behold, a white horse, and he that sat thereon had a bow; and there was given unto him a crown: and he came forth conquering, and to conquer. And when he opened the second seal, I heard the second living creature saying, Come. And another horse came forth, a red horse: and to him that sat thereon it was given to take peace from the earth, and that they should slay one another: and there was given unto him a great sword. And when he opened the third seal, I heard the third living creature saying, Come. And I saw, and behold, a black horse; and he that sat thereon had a balance in his hand. And I heard as it were a voice in the midst of the four living creatures saying, A measure of wheat for a shilling, and three measures of barley for a shilling; and the oil and the wine hurt thou not. And when he opened the fourth seal, I heard the voice of the fourth living creature saying, Come. And I saw, and behold, a pale horse: and he that sat upon him, his name was Death; and Hades followed with him. And there was given unto them authority over the fourth part of the earth, to kill with sword, and with famine, and with death, and by the wild beasts of the earth.

Key Memory ~
I went to the Jersey shore for the first time when I was 12. I remember seeing the ocean from a distance, I was in Awe, the vastness of it and the beauty. The way the sun shined all across the surface, like it was covered with a blanket of sparkling diamonds. It was so breath taking. Although I had been to the beach before when we visited Portugal in 1977, it was as if I had not seen the ocean before, as if it were for the very first time.

We spent the day there, I know I was with my sister Linda, but I can't remember who else had gone, I believe it was one of her friends. When we got home it was soon realized that I had a pretty bad sunburn, my mom actually covered me from head to toe with Noxema. I didn't tan easy like my siblings did, I had very fair skin, like my mom. From that point on I wound up with many freckles on my face. Soon after, wearing makeup became my best friend. I always remember thinking I didn't want to look like a pale horse, even up to recent years I would tell my husband that I hated that I was so pale.

Fact ~ 

Somewhere during 2015 - 2018 I had decided I wanted to write a book about my life. My hope was to help many that had suffered and continued to suffer, those who felt they had no way out and had no one to talk to. I was willing to expose everything about myself, the good and the bad, knowing how it could reflect on me. I thought to myself "I'm already lost, so what difference does it make what others will think, if I could help even just one person, then it would be worth it."


For the front cover I wanted 3 Roses, a White one for Innocence (child), a Red one for unwanted Desire (becoming a people pleaser) and a Black one for Death (what I truly felt within). I even went as far as reaching out to publishers in NY by phone and email.


Later, after sketching out some ideas, I decided I would add a Yellow Rose (for the light) and Green Rose (for being at peace) somewhere in the background, behind the small clear vase with the White flower that leaned on it. The cover itself would be black with shades of gray flowing through it, like storm clouds. The White Rose would sit alone, the Red one semi-wilted (falling) and the black one laying down flat.

Updated: 01/30/22 

Here's an idea of what I wanted the cover somewhat to look like.

My husband was concerned at what I might expose and whom it might hurt, so I explained to him that I could write it anonymously and change the names. My intent was to help others, not hurt anyone in the process. I had forgiven, just as I had hoped I would be forgiven for my many flaws. I believe all 4 boys knew I wanted to write the book, one of my twin boys, Andrew, repeatedly asked me to do it. Soon after I started to realize that it might actually hurt my them more, than to possibly help, so I decided to let it go.

Little did I know what I was missing was spiritual food. I had none. Everything I was eating became toxic to me...everything. 

How could I help others when I couldn't even help myself...when I was spiritually unbalanced? 

Jehovah knows those who belong to Him, he knew all along what I was missing, He never left my side. It's February/March of 2019, 50 years old, the year my life completely turns around, I desperately reached out to Jehovah, and He brought me back.

 

Revelation 4:8 ASV — And the four living creatures, having each one of them six wings, are full of eyes round about and within: and they have no rest day and night, saying, Holy, holy, holy, is the Lord God, the Almighty, who was and who is and who is to come.

What Was the Jubilee?

A jubilee is a special anniversary. The Israelites were to celebrate their Jubilee every 50 years. Starting with the time of entering the Promised Land, the nation of Israel was to count six years during which the land was sown, cultivated, and harvested. The seventh year was to be a sabbath year, during which no sowing or pruning could be done. Seven of these seven-year periods (7 × 7 = 49) were to be counted, and the following year, the 50th, was to be a Jubilee year. Starting the count of years with the entry of the Israelites into the Promised Land, their first Jubilee year began in Tishri, 1424 B.C.E.​—Lev. 25:2-4, 8-10.

Ecclesiastes 3:15 ASV — That which is hath been long ago; and that which is to be hath long ago been: and God seeketh again that which is passed away.

Repurchaser...

Isaiah 44:24, 27-28 ASV — Thus saith Jehovah, thy Redeemer, and he that formed thee from the womb: I am Jehovah, that maketh all things; that stretcheth forth the heavens alone; that spreadeth abroad the earth (who is with me?); ... 27 that saith to the deep, Be dry, and I will dry up thy rivers; 28 That saith of Cyrus, [He is] my shepherd, and shall perform all my pleasure, even saying of Jerusalem, She shall be built; and of the temple, Thy foundation shall be laid.

Voluntary Offering...

1 Chronicles 29:8-9 ASV — And they with whom precious stones were found gave them to the treasure of the house of Jehovah, under the hand of Jehiel the Gershonite. Then the people rejoiced, for that they offered willingly, because with a perfect heart they offered willingly to Jehovah: and David the king also rejoiced with great joy.

Fruitage of the Spirit...

Jeremiah 17:9-10 ASV — The heart is deceitful above all things, and it is exceedingly corrupt: who can know it? I, Jehovah, search the mind, I try the heart, even to give every man according to his ways, according to the fruit of his doings.

Psalm 37:3 ASV — Trust in Jehovah, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on his faithfulness.

Psalm 23:4, 6 ASV — Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for thou art with me; Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me. ... 6 Surely goodness and lovingkindness shall follow me all the days of my life; And I shall dwell in the house of Jehovah for ever.

Update: 10/04/21...

Note: Receiving Holy Spirit is not the same as being anointed by it.

2 Corinthians 1:21-22 ASV — Now he that establisheth us with you in Christ, and anointed us, is God; who also sealed us, and gave us the earnest of the Spirit in our hearts.

Many received holy spirit before Christ's ascension. Here's two examples...

Matthew 10:1 ASV — And he called unto him his twelve disciples, and gave them authority over unclean spirits, to cast them out, and to heal all manner of disease and all manner of sickness.

Luke 10:17 ASV — And the seventy returned with joy, saying, Lord, even the demons are subject unto us in thy name.

At this time the New Birth had not started. It started in the days of Pentecost after the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ being the First of the new creation.

John 16:7 ASV — Nevertheless I tell you the truth: It is expedient for you that I go away; for if I go not away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I go, I will send him unto you.

Acts 2:2-4 ASV — And suddenly there came from heaven a sound as of the rushing of a mighty wind, and it filled all the house where they were sitting. And there appeared unto them tongues parting asunder, like as of fire; and it sat upon each one of them. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit, and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.

Colossians 1:18 ASV — And he is the head of the body, the church: who is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead; that in all things he might have the preeminence.

See blog post:

• Baptism in death ~ Born Again ~ "in" Jesus' Name

End of update.

SONG 38

He Will Make You Strong

(1 Peter 5:10)

1. 1. There was a reason why God brought the truth to you
   And called you from the darkness to the light.
   Within your heart, he saw the longing that you had
   To search for him and practice what is right.
   You promised him in prayer to do his will;
   He helped you then, and he will help you still.
   (CHORUS)

   With Jesus’ blood He bought you,

   to God you now belong.

   So he will make you firm,

   and he will make you strong.

   He’ll guide you and protect you,

   as he has all along.

   Yes, he will make you firm,

   and he will make you strong.
2. 2. God gave his own beloved Son in your behalf;
   On this account, He wants you to succeed.
   If He did not withhold the gift of His dear Son,
   Then never doubt He’ll give the strength you need.
   He won’t forget the faith and love you’ve shown;
   He will not fail to care for all His own.
   (CHORUS)

   With Jesus’ blood He bought you,

   to God you now belong.

   So he will make you firm,

   and he will make you strong.

   He’ll guide you and protect you,

   as he has all along.

   Yes, he will make you firm,

   and he will make you strong.

(See also Rom. 8:32; 14:8, 9; Heb. 6:10; 1 Pet. 2:9.)

Psalm 145:3 ASV — Great is Jehovah, and greatly to be praised; And his greatness is unsearchable.

May Jehovah through Jesus Christ bring you...

~ Peace, Love and Joy ~